A long-time client of mine agreed to let me share an abbreviated version of the reading I did for him. At the time of this reading he was suffering writer’s block and wanted to connect with his muse. He was interested in what his muse had to say about his book versus what he had been planning.
Before reading please note that I don’t believe a person and their muse are ever truly disconnected, but it can feel that way at times and that is what this reading was about.
In the image the top row is the client’s conscious mind and thoughts about his writing, book and plot.
The bottom row is the client’s muse’s response to the same questions listed below.
The client picked ‘The Star’. Although the client had writer’s block, in the long run he was feeling hopeful about their novel. They could see the end in sight and were positive about their goals. Although they acknowledged it would take a lot of work to get to those goals. While they were eager to get back to writing and even feeling restless, The Star urged them to take some time out and replenish themselves and their muse before forging ahead. It had been a long and rough journey and they were depleted. They agreed that every time they sat down to write, hope seemed to fade and the words didn’t feel quite right. They were expending a lot of energy holding on to hope.
The muse picked ‘Three of Plumes’ (Swords) and ‘Death’. The muse is ‘heartbroken’, feeling separated and rejected. There is a sense of sadness around this book and creative woundedness. When I consulted with the client they affirmed this feeling resonated with them and that is why they had come for a reading. Although they felt hopeful, they also felt stagnant and out of touch with their muse. The combination of ‘Three of Plumes’ and ‘Death’ indicates that this separation and hurt was necessary so that any stagnation could ‘bleed out’, cleanse the creative wound and a change could happen. (I won’t be expanding on the ‘creative wound’ in order to protect my client’s privacy.)
The appearance of the Death card indicates that the client and their muse were at a significant albeit painful turning point, but the outcome would eventually be positive. Changes needed to happen for my client and their muse to align again and help the novel and writing move forward. But when they do eventually move through this transformation, the writing and the novel would be different and better than ever.
The client picked ‘Nine of Plumes’. At this point my client broke down in tears. They couldn’t think of how to get past the writer’s block because it had been with them for so long. They were afraid their muse was dead. As I watched my client cry and shake it was the equivalent of watching the very definition of ‘Nine of Plumes’ play out: nightmare. This card is about nightmares, anxiety, and insomnia. Often when this card comes up it can mean the client needs more rest before facing their problems because their anxiety means they are blowing their problems out of proportion. It is perhaps unsurprising that this card came up when asking about how to solve this problem. The client came to the reading looking for hope, and the muse communicated a sense of woundedness and a need for profound change. Both of these things are hard to face, let alone a writer who had a deadline and writer’s block. This is why the message from ‘The Star’ to replenish was so important.
The muse picked ‘The Tower’. In general, The Tower means that a huge wake-up call is coming. It will be sudden and violent. It will shake the foundations of all you know, and anything that isn’t structurally sound or serving you on your life’s path will fall away. The message to the client was to let go. It was likely that their anxiety and sleeplessness was due to trying to hold on to things that needed to go and were always going to fall away. By allowing the transformation to happen the client was ensuring they would connect with their muse again.
Things that fall away when The Tower appears are often structures of belief, thought patterns, ego, emotional attachments, and any false sense of self. As such it is not an easy card to move through, but it was clear at this point that the muse needed a shift to happen in order to reconnect with my client, and this shift was already underway, all the client had to do was let go, allow the change to happen and focus on taking care of themselves.
In short: within destruction lies creation.
The client chose the ‘Ten of Plumes’ (Ten of air) and ‘The Moon’. In short, these cards signified that the client would need to let go and trust their instincts more. While they might go through a period of mourning and pain for the path that they thought they were destined to go down, that line of thinking was exhausted. They had been working against themselves and that is why they had writer’s block.
After accepting and moving through the change of the Death and The Tower cards into the arms of ‘The Moon’, they might feel as though they are moving into the dark and the unknown as they let go of they old ways of thinking and plans, their muse would be there to guide them. They more they trusted themselves and their instincts, letting emotion flow through them and refill their creative well, the more wisdom and creative solutions would come to them. This time will be as scary as it will be exciting, but this thrill is something the client needed.
The muse chose the ‘Ten of Blooms’ (Ten of cups). Boom. The client and their muse would be happily reunited and work together to create emotionally fulfilling and joyous work together. After a period of intense work, self-care, letting go, change and acceptance, the client would move through into exciting and uncharted waters. They were encouraged to trust their dreams and intuition because it is in this mysterious and chaotic place of feeling that they would connect with their muse and start creating again. Although it would be a messy period with emotional ups and downs, overall there would be success, happiness, fulfillment and a sense of falling in love with writing all over again.
The client chose the ‘The Lovers’. The hero is facing a choice, a significant one at that. It may be one already in the novel or one yet to come. It was likely to do with his lover. When I tapped into this card I had a sense that the hero’s decision around his lover would determine the hero’s character, especially his morals. It would define him as either a hero, or a villain. Even if he saved the day, he may break a lot of hearts along the way, even to the point of being an unforgivable character despite saving the world. As such, the client was urged to revisit the hero’s choices around love, and to not shy away from exploring the shadow side of love even if they chose to go down the lighter path for the novel.
The muse chose the ‘Wheel of Fortune’. The client was urged to accept the ups and downs of writing and realize that no matter what, even the creative life had its ups and downs. Sometimes writing would come easy, sometimes it wouldn’t. Sometimes the connection to the muse would come easy, sometimes it wouldn’t. But the muse was always there. A persons muse never dies, but like everything, the relationship between the artist and muse goes in cycles. While it is important to nourish the muse and work hard, it is also important to accept the cycles of life and not get caught up in anxiety. For the next part of the clients novel, they were encouraged to try ‘pantsing’. My client was a plotter at heart but the muse indicated that there were factors effecting the book and plot outside of their control (aka the wild primalness of ‘The Moon’. With ‘The Moon’ in the spread and the muse reaching out for connection, they were encouraged to practice writing without plot or purpose in mind. Through stretching this different creative muscle, they would discover the factors needed to guide the hero’s decision around love.
Overall: The client was overthinking and essentially getting in their own way. A very exciting and profound creative change was underway and the muse had been trying to communicate this. The client just needed to trust, let go, cry their tears and let the growth happen whilst focusing on self-care. The muse was always there, but the connection with the muse was going to return stronger than ever along with a lot of changes that would see my client try out different directions in their writing that would lead to success and happiness in the long run.